Rut

I had a conversation last night with my InvizQueen about my writing.  She helped me realize that I was in a rut when she asked me when the last time was I wrote a real story.  Apart from a short story I wrote a few months ago, it had been years.  That's dreadful.

I let myself fall into a rut of only writing the same stories. I write fiction involving large women in ways that I find fascinating, most of the time in sexual ways.  Writing those stories is extraordinarily fun, and people read them, people enjoy them, people encourage me to write more.  However, writing expansion stories is very easy, as evident by how many people crank out expansion story after expansion story.  I agree with my wife that it's not really a challenge.  She cites my story, "The Maw", as being a story that I could integrate into a much larger, more detailed story.  Hell, maybe even a novel.  I'm not thinking that it's a bad idea - I totally skimped out on that story for the sake of "the good parts".

I don't hide the fact that I love large women in the really real world and I'm vocal about my disdain for thin women. That said, I'm uncomfortable with my friends and loved ones knowing the inner workings of my bizarre sexual fantasies.  And this goes both ways; I don't want to know that my friends are into bondage or tentacle-rape or anything like that.  Not that I'm intolerant, but I respect their privacy and I don't want that elephant in the room.  Plus, I have a hard enough time describing my preferences to my wife - I don't want to have to have that type of conversation with the people in my life. "Hello friend or loved one, read this story I wrote!  Why do the fat women keep exploding, you ask?  Uh... well... you see... I have to go and return some video tapes."

It's stereotypical for a twentysomething writer to have piles of shit ideas and fragmented novels, and I have my share.  So I've decided to put my InvizKing stories on the back burner instead of my "real" stories.  I've had an idea for a novel that I've consistently neglected for years.  Perhaps I'll expand on "The Maw" into a novel, or novella, or something after I've finished that. It's easy to fall into a rut of writing easy stories that are pleasing to read (for some people anyway), and I don't want to be in my 50's looking back on my writing and seeing a path paved in gluttonous women (though that would be sweet, if in a literal form!).

I'm not saying that I'm going to stop writing InvizKing stories.  I'm currently working on a collaboration in addition to three other stories.  Those will be finished eventually.  Thanks for reading my stuff, hopefully you'll enjoy the "real" stuff as much as the stories that're here!